I haven’t posted anything for such a long time, and just as I was about to update my blog, news of Covid-19 seem to become more prominent and more scary. At a time of such worry and angst, it seemed so irrelevant to share a post about what I’ve been eating the last few months and how cute my new baby is. That said, my newsfeed is heavily dominated by Coronavirus updates and so perhaps it is time for something light-hearted.

I had a baby!

I felt like I was pregnant for years! In October 2019 my second baby girl finally arrived. They often say your second pregnancy and birth is much easier, but in my case that couldn’t be more wrong. I was more sick throughout my second pregnancy and I ended up needing an emergency c-section after several complications. 

Whoever came up with the phrase “too posh to push” needs a hiding; recovering from the c-section has been pretty hard going – physically and emotionally. But this is meant to be a light-hearted post and so we’ll move on, and I’m happy to share I’m doing much better these days in terms of recovery and my baby girl is healthy and well.

Feeling body positive, until…

If you’re a friend of mine and/or have read my posts in the past then you’ll know I love food and I’m pretty good at putting on weight. When I became pregnant last year, I was determined to keep fit and not gain as much as I did the first time round. That didn’t go to plan, and I’ve put on a lot of weight! However, this time round and after my latest birth experience, losing weight didn’t seem important. I felt glad to be alive and that my baby was too. Having read more about body positivity, I was feeling confident in myself to not give a damn about my weight and to just let my body be and heal.

However, so many people commented on my size, asked when I planned to lose weight, asked what I was eating, told me how I should eat, asked when was I going to start exercising – all when I could barely walk. I always thought that my desire to lose weight and be slim came from me, but I never realised how bombarded I had been from people close to me about my body image. The same people who say, “don’t worry about it, be confident with who you are” are the same people telling me to change.

Although I tried to fight it, that body positive feeling I had has been squished and I have succumbed to dieting (in a healthy way). Not just because of the comments though. Truth is, being lighter feels better for my body type and means I can keep up with two children. 

Home schooling during Covid-19 lockdown

My oldest daughter is hilarious and in many ways it’s lovely spending more time with her, but wtf! I’m no teacher and home schooling for the unforeseeable future is messed up. Luckily her teachers have been amazing and have sent me loads of activities and resources, but my days now are crazy busy and tiring. 

Something actually light-hearted 

Here’s a cute picture of some random cat because my post wasn’t particular light-hearted like I promised, but it was filled with some nonsense! I hope you enjoyed it in some way. 😘